Merry Christmas (kind of)

I had so many plans for this Christmas.  I was going to make some cute stuff off of pinterest, bake some yummy desserts, and just make the holiday super fun for our boys (especially Remington).  Then I got pregnant.  Which I welcomed...but I wasn't able to do all the things I wanted to do because I was sick and tired.  Now I'm not pregnant and I feel like all those weeks were wasted.

I feel bad for Nate too.  He took some vacation time during the holidays and now he has to help a recovering wife.  Basically he has to step in and be the mom for a week since I can't pick up Campbell.

We did have a very good Christmas.  We enjoyed spending time with family.  I loved watching the boys open their presents.  I am grateful for all the blessings we have in our lives.  I couldn't help but be sad about the one thing missing.

I had to refocus many times to keep myself from breaking into tears.  I reminded myself of last Christmas when we got to bring home our NICU baby.  Our sweet baby Campbell.  I love him so much.  I love Rem too.  I am so grateful my boys and wonderful husband because this is definitely a hard time for me.

Even though this blog post seems like such a depressing one.  It really was a wonderful Christmas.  I just had moments of sadness which I'm sure I'll be having for awhile.